Lord save me…I’m your beautiful stranger.
In life, God brings people into your life for a reason. Everyone means something to you.( yes they do,once you sit down and realize how much each individual has a value in your life wether its your pet, sister,brother, parents family, friends, girlfran,boyfran,teacher..etc.)
I’m sitting here thinking of my past… So many memories flashing through my mind.
I tore all my journals, threw them all away thinking it would erase my bad memories of friendships,family drama, and death. Wrong, I remember almost everything I wrote in them journals…Sitting here and letting all the memories of my past flash through my mind.
Most of the memories are good but some are painful and i've been just thinking so much.
I miss the loved ones that have past away, I miss certain friends who aren't in my life anymore either because we've lost touch or we've distanced each other off. I miss some of my family members on the other side of the world. I'm afraid. I've seen death. I lost my great aunt. It kills. I've lost my grandmother, it hurts. I lost a classmate in 6th grade and ate lunch the rest of the year alone. Then the week of my finals, freshmen year... Dec 7, 2005 my brother passed away from battling cancer. Since then i've tried so hard to open myself to others but some nights I just think of the ones who I was closer to. On a postive note I made it so far into my life. I remember I use to doubt that i'd live past being 16. Hated struggling with life but I had a change of way with life and now i'm going to be turning 19 soon (: Who knows what God has planned for me in my future! Hopefully my dream of helping the homeless comes true, iA!!
Even the best fall down sometimes, even the stars refuse to shine, out of the back you fall in time…somehow find you and I collide….don’t stop here…. I lost my place.
I’m sitting here thinking of my past… So many memories flashing through my mind.
I tore all my journals, threw them all away thinking it would erase my bad memories of friendships,family drama, and death. Wrong, I remember almost everything I wrote in them journals…Sitting here and letting all the memories of my past flash through my mind.
Most of the memories are good but some are painful and i've been just thinking so much.
I miss the loved ones that have past away, I miss certain friends who aren't in my life anymore either because we've lost touch or we've distanced each other off. I miss some of my family members on the other side of the world. I'm afraid. I've seen death. I lost my great aunt. It kills. I've lost my grandmother, it hurts. I lost a classmate in 6th grade and ate lunch the rest of the year alone. Then the week of my finals, freshmen year... Dec 7, 2005 my brother passed away from battling cancer. Since then i've tried so hard to open myself to others but some nights I just think of the ones who I was closer to. On a postive note I made it so far into my life. I remember I use to doubt that i'd live past being 16. Hated struggling with life but I had a change of way with life and now i'm going to be turning 19 soon (: Who knows what God has planned for me in my future! Hopefully my dream of helping the homeless comes true, iA!!
Even the best fall down sometimes, even the stars refuse to shine, out of the back you fall in time…somehow find you and I collide….don’t stop here…. I lost my place.
